My Forever 11:11 Wish

My Forever 11:11 Wish

I hate that you’re my 11:11 wish

Because despite everything, I want to believe I may be your 11:11 wish too

I hate that I crave you

Just one more kiss that will keep me in a summer haze during those cold winter nights

I hate that I’m hopeful

That maybe, just maybe if I wait long enough, you’ll realize you should have been with me all along

I hate that I want to embrace you,

And feel as if we are one as my body moves up and down with every breath that you take

I hate that I feel I still need you

Even though I know you’ve gotten along just fine without me

I hate that I believed in you

Because everyone else told me not to and now I see that they were right

I hate that I stuck up for you

Because now that I know everyone was right, I’m the one that looks like a fool

I hate that I don’t hate you.

I mean I should, you fucked me over just like you fuck her every weekend

I hate how you told me I’m beautiful

Because those simple words hit deep, making it that much more painful when I realized it was just something you said to get you and I alone in your room

I hate that you made me cry

Because now it proves these feelings are real and not just fleeting

I hate that you call me your best girl friend

Not because I know it isn’t true but because I want to be known as your girlfriend

I hate that after all the heartache you’ve put me through, I still want you

Every second of every day of every God damn week

I hate that you’re my 11:11 wish

Because despite everything, I want to believe I may be your 11:11 wish too